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24 November 2010 @ 11:13 am
So, yeah.  
TSH number's over 4 as of the latest test.
What this means is that I am probably hypothyroid now even according to Dr. "Numbers vary! The fact that your numbers are varying straight upwards doesn't mean anything! And your being a tiny bit below the magical medical threshold is great news, cause it means you're fine!" -- not that this will get me to go back to her. Doctor who listens to patients, here I come.

What it also means is that I can stop second-guessing myself and telling myself I'm making things up and being lazy Any Time Now. And certain well-meaning people (not here) can stop telling me not to worry I'm far too young for that.

What it also might mean is that I could get better now, with treatment. I might be able to focus on that damn diss. And I might be able to read again you guys I mean, more than a novel or a couple short stories every few months; I've been deprived these last three years.
...I am trying not to cry in public at the possibility of being able to read again.


In totally unrelated news, the universe is powered by two great springs; when one winds down, the other winds up. Cataclysmic changes in Cosmic Ages occur when they get too out of balance, with one wound too tight and the other unable to balance it.

Now some humans anthropomorphize these cosmic springs, as they do everything, and call them Siva and Parvati, while others claim that the universe runs on just the one spring (which is silly, because, whoever would wind it back up?)

The gearwork these springs run is all around us, too tiny or too huge to see, but though we cannot see it we have evidence of its ticking. Just look at the patterns of its movement jewels, which we call planets, stars, and other demigods.

( rysmiel, thanks for noting how Steampunk seems to run on perpetual motion machines HERE I MADE YOU ONE. *grins*
...and lnhammer, GEARS!)

Also, discussions of Privilege Denying Dude are awesome :)
Current Mood: blahohthankgods
Marissa Lingenmrissa on November 24th, 2010 07:23 pm (UTC)
Here's to evidence that may bring forward motion!
shweta_narayan: igglesshweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:43 pm (UTC)
Yes! Yay for that :)

It's not even hugely different from before-- 4.25 vs 3.92 -- it's just over the magic line now.
Mary Dellmarydell on November 24th, 2010 07:57 pm (UTC)
That is SUCH great news, OMG, thyroid treatment! Doctor-who-listens! I googled "hypothyroid asthma" and found a pile of internet quacks explaining how asthma can get better with thyroid treatment...possibly this is even true, as I find internet quacks are sometimes onto something underneath the quackery.
shweta_narayan: mangatarshweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:41 pm (UTC)
Well, should specify that I am trying "doctor who CLAIMS to listen" while waiting to see if "doctor who comes recommended as a listener" is willing to see a new patient. But I'm hopeful.

Also, unfortunately, asthma can also get worse with hypothyroid treatment. So we shall see; I'm not holding out on that one!
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Annetxanne on November 24th, 2010 08:01 pm (UTC)
*crosses fingers very hard*

Those Great Springs wouldn't have anything to do with a Sekrit Drawing, would they?
shweta_narayan: mangatarshweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:42 pm (UTC)
Er... nothing direct. The beliefs and image may have a character in common.
Niamh Sageniamh_sage on November 24th, 2010 08:10 pm (UTC)
Wow, that's great news, that you at last know what's wrong and that there's something you can do to treat it! I fervently hope that your treatment is successful and you can read again soon. Sending loads of good vibes your way!

shweta_narayan: authorpic1shweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you :)

It's not as clear-cut as that; I've known what's wrong for a while, & I suspect it would still be possible for a doctor in denial (as my soon-to-be-officially-fired-one seems to be) to say there needed to be more tests & one result wasn't enough etc.. but between this and new doctor I think I can argue for actual movement on it. And it does make it even less likely that the symptoms have another cause.
gwynnega on November 24th, 2010 08:12 pm (UTC)
Excellent news. I really hope treatment for hypothyroid helps you a lot! (It helped me a lot, and it took awhile for me to get diagnosed as well...)
shweta_narayan: mistshweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
If I can just stop with the major temperature crashes & attendant brainfog and weepiness, I'll count it a win. But more energy & focus overall would be good too...
nancylebov: green leavesnancylebov on November 24th, 2010 08:20 pm (UTC)
That's great news-- congrats on getting access to the doctor who listens.
shweta_narayan: mangatarshweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:47 pm (UTC)
crossed fingers on that -- so far it's only the doctor who claims to listen, but I am hopeful :)
mariadeira on November 24th, 2010 08:21 pm (UTC)
Doctors who listen - yay! Diagnosis and treatment (finally) - double-yay! I also went through a period where I couldn't read and it was horrible, so I hope that you can read again soon.
shweta_narayan: authorpic1shweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:48 pm (UTC)
I am glad you're better, and thank you! Crossed fingers for me too.

And I've been thinking a lot about what you said about getting treated as a WOC; it really matches my experience so far on this.
Athena Andreadis, aka Helivoy: Shadehelivoy on November 24th, 2010 08:31 pm (UTC)
Good grief -- the parameters for hypo- and hyper-thyroidism have been tightened since 2002. Given how this affects mental state/ability and the fact that unfortunates who complain are routinely stuffed with antidepressants, this is simply inhumane, to say nothing of competence. Unfortunately, I can just see the scene all too well, having had equivalent experiences.

I'm glad you'll finally get relevant and potentially effective treatment. And the Gabby's Playhouse comic is a classic.
shweta_narayan: aieeeeshweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:52 pm (UTC)
Good grief -- the parameters for hypo- and hyper-thyroidism have been tightened since 2002.

It's weird and controversial in the US (I am told for economic reasons not medical ones) -- they tightened the parameters, and then decided that they weren't doing that after all, and now it depends on which doctor you go to...
According to the tightened parameters my TSH has been too high all three years, with no exception. The trick has been finding a doctor who knows that and doesn't go "My charts say you're fine".

The doc tried to put me on antidepressants. I ...yelled at her. About gross physiological effects not being primarily neurotransmitter-modulated if a HOT WATER BOTTLE fixed them.

I'm glad you'll finally get relevant and potentially effective treatment.

This is still a maybe. But it is a better maybe than before. It could even be a probably :)
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Nisi Shawlnisi_la on November 24th, 2010 08:48 pm (UTC)
Shweta, I was also diagnosed w/hypothyroidism. And this is important: get naturopathic treatment if at all possible. Synthetic thyro replacement hormones work--for a while. Natural is making a huge difference to me, but it needs support with other supplements.

For me the first sign of natural treatment's superiority over just chugging synthroid per blood tests: I can now sleep more than three hours at a time w/o eating.

I can rec references on this if you like. Call me if you like.

You will get better.
shweta_narayan: authorpic1shweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:56 pm (UTC)
Thank you for this, Nisi! I had been wondering whether to ask for the natural hormones given what I'd been reading, but couldn't really tell what was reliable. So this is great to know.

Call me if you like.

I'm specifically doing to someone who's listed as doing both family medicine and holistic medicine, so I'm hoping it won't be an issue, but reading material is always good. If you have easy recs, would love them!

Can't call you though -- talking on the phone is impossible atm :(
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some guy named Larrylnhammer on November 24th, 2010 09:21 pm (UTC)
The gears advance!

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shweta_narayan: aieeeeshweta_narayan on November 24th, 2010 09:59 pm (UTC)
I remember the conversation, but have not been feeling up to taking things into my own hands; have spent much of the last year dithering.
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Vylar Kaftanvylar_kaftan on November 25th, 2010 01:32 am (UTC)
Yay for making progress on health things. I am hypothyroid and many doctors do not know the new research. Drop me a line if you'd like to talk.
shweta_narayan: authorpic1shweta_narayan on November 25th, 2010 01:40 am (UTC)
Thank you!
Consider this Intent to drop you a line once I'm over the latest crash, assuming I don't get the memory holes this time & flake.
Am currently 95% wet rag.
Angelic Eye for the Gendered-Species Individual: body to bodyrysmiel on November 25th, 2010 02:10 am (UTC)
I cheer to hear of your potential good health news, and hope fervently that it becomes more concrete in as short order as feasibled.

Also, pretty pretty image. My mind is going to blur "cosmic strings" with "cosmic springs" now, I think.
shweta_narayan: mangatarshweta_narayan on November 25th, 2010 02:23 am (UTC)
Thank you! Also, yay! I think the strings were mixed in there in my head, though of course one can never tell.

You might be amused to know that this is why my sentient-clockwork guys haven't figured out artificial satellites -- no concept of orbital (or escape) velocity as a Thing. Because obviously speed of orbit is a mere consequence of the size and purpose of your fixed-radius invisible gears.
Erin Cashiertherinth on November 25th, 2010 06:29 pm (UTC)
I had a TSH of a 7 when i went into my drs, begging to get put on psych meds because I knew *something* was broken.

Cytomel has completely changed my life. It's straight T4, my body doesn't have to do anything to utilize it, it just goes straight in. I love it. So much so that I've had thoughts about just what i'd do during an apocalypse to get more.

About.com has amazing thyroid resources. And while the natural stuff is great according to some people, i'd try the pharma meds first, just to see how good you can feel, and then transition from there to natural stuff that works equally well. I have a friend who just does natural stuff, she's in the natural foods industry, and she feels better...but I think she could feel so much more better if she were on higher doses, or better monitored.

You have to be really aggressive to get what you want -- i'm lucky, i'm a nurse, so my doctor believes me -- but it's worth it. Thryoid meds will help everything so much. Really.
shweta_narayan: authorpic1shweta_narayan on November 25th, 2010 08:53 pm (UTC)
OMG just from the difference in how I feel at TSH of 2.95 (three years ago) and 4.25 (now), I am cringing at what a seven means.

And yeah now that the numbers agree with me, I get to be aggressive. Or get elsmi to be aggressive so that they don't blow it off as hypersensitive WOC.
Itinerant hacker adventuress: polite raventhewronghands on November 26th, 2010 01:32 am (UTC)
Sorry about your stupid insensitive doctor with the listening problem. Here's hoping that you find a new doctor and a helpful treatment that makes you feel better. And, ooh, yeah, best of luck on the maybe having future-spoons for reading. I have been there for different reasons and sympathize with the resurgence of hope.